Tuesday, May 30, 2006

30 therapy

Not sure if it's having the baby and adjusting to the role of being a mum or because I'm approaching the big three-oh, but I just feel an overwhelming need to sort my head out. To become more confident, get rid of all those hang-ups that've been around for 15yrs or more, to sort out all the shit in my head I suppose. I'm the last person to read self-help books, but started reading 'Feel The Fear...' yesterday and couldn't put it down, read about half of it in one night. Some of it is definitely not very me (the affirmations bit), but I'm giving it a go. It's just positive thinking really I suppose, and there's nothing wrong with that.

Monday, May 29, 2006

A Passage to India

Just finished this book on the recommendation of my mum + also the foreword to Zadie Smith's 'On beauty'. The first chapter was quite slow and descriptive, and I was worried I wouldn't like the book, but once it got going it was fantastic. I really liked the characters, although some of them seemed to die very suddenly and unexpectedly (but I have since found out that this is a feature of E.M.Forster's work). The story is not action-packed, but more about the characters and the relationships and tensions between them. Brilliant. I will definitely add other works by Forster to my 'To Be Read' list.

Thursday, May 25, 2006

Is this ridiculous or is this ridiculous? For over a month now I've been trying to ring my manager at work to tell her I want to return to work after being on maternity leave for 1 year at the end of July, but she's been on holiday for over 2 weeks, and then off sick for over 2 weeks (lame, very lame dear)... she's still not back, and no one else seems to be dealing with this sort of thing. Not sure what to do or who to ring... her boss never picks up the phone, and human resources probably can't help either as they don't do the rotas or anything. Bugger.

Went to Muswell Hill yesterday and fell in love with the place, it's beautiful. Have definitely added it to the list of potential areas to buy a house, which we are hoping to do by the end of this year. We must escape evil Essex, we must!

Tuesday, May 23, 2006


Is anyone else watching this year's Big Brother? I promised myself I wouldn't watch it, but they're all so, well, weird quite frankly, that I am compelled to do so. I have to say that the strangest person I have ever seen, Shabaz, is just fantastic. And they're all so hot-headed: it's only day 5 and 2 people have kissed, others sit stroking each others' arms and there've been furious rows already. What will the next 11 weeks hold? likely prospects include gay sex and orgies. Watch this space.

Monday, May 22, 2006


Is it bad to have just re-read the first chapter of the old novel and to have decided that it's a piece of poo, and that I should start a new one? I can't imagine any agents / publishers / readers being very interested in the clunky dialogue and weak plot. Aah me...

Wind in the Willows

It's blowing a gale, raining and as dark as night. Oh it must be the Great British Summertime. What fun!

Have decided I really should try to edit that novel I wrote for NaNoWriMo. Parts of it are ok, parts of it are crap, but the job of rewriting has had me procrastinating until now.

If you can get hold of a copy of this month's Yoga & Health magazine, I've got a piece in it. It's about Royal Jelly and is on page 14. Yay!

Stuff Nick Hornby's been reading.

Thursday, May 18, 2006

Can you tell the difference between a sex toy and a baby toy? try the quiz. Rather disappointingly, I only got 5.

Fabulous story about some Nigerian illegal immigrants who were working at the home office department responsible for deporting them.

Monday, May 15, 2006


God, why is it that whenever I come up to Newcastle it's always freezing here and positively tropical in London? Typical. Flying with the Little One was not as bad as expected. In fact she was really rather good, let's hope she remains so for the holiday in July. She took her first crawling steps today, aww!

After finishing the brilliant Zadie Smith book, on her recommendation of E.M.Forster in the introduction, I'm now reading A Passage to India. It was quite slow to begin with, but now I'm about 100 pages in, it's gettign more interesting. Funnily enough, he does write a little like Ms Smith, or rather she writes a little like him. Probably not a book I'd have picked up otherwise, so thanks Z.S. for the recommendation.

Sunday, May 07, 2006

Oop North

Am being brave and am taking a flight with Baby E tomorrow to Newcastle for 10 days. Should be able to blog from there... see you on the other side...

Tuesday, May 02, 2006


Having problems sleeping lately, not sure why, only had 5 hours last night... things are just playing on my mind. Perhaps it's missing London, perhaps it's because of chavs-r-us next door, or the skinhead the other way who has a shotgun and a big sword (he cleans them on his balcony), who wears army clothes (but I doubt he has a military career) and who has a 'vote BNP' sign in his window. Nice. We really need to move back to London, I'm starting to really hate it here.