Monday, March 29, 2004

Aah the PMT moment has passed... had a better day today - did the research thing.. visited the ante-natal clinic, met the midwife... the project will be ready to go by the time I get back off my holiday. Even better - I am on a late shift tomorrow, so I don't start til noon, so I can have a lovely bit of a lie-in (well, till 10am anyway). Bought a ocuple of books on e-bay - The Doors of Perception by Aldous Huxley and Slaughterhouse 5 by Kurt Vonnegut... look interesting.. I've wanted to read both of these books for years, and now I can!

Oh and the word-a-day thing seems to have gone by the by.... soon to return by the end of the week!

Sunday, March 28, 2004

Just having a very dull and boring weekend.. was supposed to meet up with a couple of old friends yesterday at Spitalfields for lunch, but they bailed out at the last minute... now I'm addicted to e-bay - looking at clothes, shoes, cosmetics... well, anything really! Feel truly fed-up and in need of some TLC / retail therapy....

Friday, March 26, 2004

Eye eye!

What a day at work! A man came round from A+E after possibly being assaulted, and he happened to have a glass eye... now this glass eye was broken, and had fallen out... so the A+E nurse brought the remnants of it round in a paper cup - it looked horrid, like a fish eye looking up at you. Then later in the day, a woman vomited blood all over my shoes, and the glass eye man almost weed on my dress (after crapping himself in the bed... classy). Also, a woman who giggled inappropriately at everything. Towards the end of the shift we had another man with a glass eye (what's going on?!!... but THIS glass eye was fixed in a scary surprised-looking position) who came in wearing his boxer shorts over a pair of leggings, bare chest and bomber jacket. Nice.

Needless to say I'm now on my second glass of wine... what a bizarre day.

Thursday, March 25, 2004

Back from shopping in town... The Boyfriend bought a nice top, but I only bought bubble bath and shampoo. Typical! Also bought a nice new notebook and some highlighter pens (to feed my love of all things stationary), in preparation for the start of The Course, in a couple of weeks' time. Have just eaten some yummy vegetarian sushi, but I added too much wasabi and my nose is running for England.

Today's Albanian word is me ngajt which means to run.

I feel a shopping trip coming on....

Wednesday, March 24, 2004

Knackered after 2 long, hard days at work... proper blogging will resume tomorrow.

Today's (and yesterday's) Albanian word is luge which means spoon.

Monday, March 22, 2004

Today I started working in the research department - it's weird, I have never worked in an office before. Some things really reminded me of The Office - for instance, I was being shown the fire exits and the ramp was blocked by some crates (tut tut) and then the other exit was just stairs... and they do have a man in a wheelchair in the department [if you're not familiar with The Office, this will not be v.funny]. Bit nicer to have your own desk and own telephone extension, rather than just trying to squeeze into a tiny corner of bench space on a busy ward. It's going to take some getting used to working in the office environment, although one plus point seems to be that it is way more relaxed than a hospital ward. The work I am going to be doing looks interesting so far.

Also got my study stuff through from the Open University - bit of a daunting prospect seeing the assignments and exam questions before you've started the course. Looks really interesting tho - lots of sociology, philosophy and (aargh) statistics.

Have just realised that I have been exceptionally (usually) good with money this month - have managed to pay 2 rents, travelcards, bills and the usual stuff out of one pay packet, and still have £250 left over... but then again I have had no social life whatsoever. Hmm.

Today's Albanian word is shkalle which means a stairway, stairs.

Sunday, March 21, 2004

Well, after another wasted weekend (in the sense that I didn't do much, not that I was actually wasted), Monday is upon us once again... tomorrow I start my new role as a Monday part-time voluntary research assistant psychologist (bit of a mouthful). Also in the news - I rang the Open University yesterday, and apparently they will be sending out my course materials for the MSc starting in May... all quite exciting (in a geeky kind of way!)... i think i might actually be addicted to studying - after all, it's only 6 months since I finished my postgrad. diploma (which took 2 years), and this will be degree number 3 (not including the philosophy degree I started but only did 8 months of, due to it 'not leading to a job'... did enjoy it tho). I'm not sure what it is I like about it... maybe it's just keeping your mind busy, or throwing yourself into some sort of project... whatever it is, it's about to begin again...

Today's Albanian word is me knu which means to sing.

Saturday, March 20, 2004

Well, this is a new experience for me - blogging from work in the middle of the night... not much to say except that a) I'm awake, and b) this is the last night shift of this run...3 hours to go! I am off till Tuesday, well I say "off" - I don't really count tomorrow as a proper day off, as I try not to sleep all day, and end up feeling like death for most of it... plus on Monday I start my research work with the clinical psychology woman, so that'll take up most of that day really... right! suppose I'd better go and like, er, check some blood pressures or something....

Friday, March 19, 2004

Aah last night tonight! Hurray! Then I am off all weekend, no plans as yet....

Today's Albanian word is me udhetim which means to travel.

Thursday, March 18, 2004

Tonight is night number three of four, so I'm getting there... now not only is there a terrorist threat here in the UK, but it's all kicking off in Kosova as well aargh... let's hope things quieten down in the next three weeks. Have just read in that article that the ruddy airports are closed... bugger! Does that mean I will get my money back on the flights if we can't go I wonder...

Today's Albanian word is pushim which means holiday, and also resting.

Wednesday, March 17, 2004

What's going on?? Yesterday, following Red Ken's scary announcement that it is only a matter of time before we are all bombed to oblivion, there was absolute chaos on the Tube - after being told that the Bakerloo line was only going to Paddington (due to a "security check" at Edgware Rd), I tried to get the overground train from QP to Euston... no trains there either. Had to get the bus in the end, and as all Londoners will already know, this is not the most reliable method of transportation when you are in a hurry. Arrived at work a mere 20mins late, but v.stressed. And today I see that there are more "security checks" on the Bakerloo line... *sigh.

Yesterday's night shift was fairly uneventful, read a lot of the book ;o)... however, tonight is a) St Patrick's night (so more drunken head injuries than usual) and b) for some reason we are only two qualified regular staff with three agency nurses... sometimes agency nurses are fine, but sometimes they are, well to be blunt, hopeless... we had one once who fell asleep at the desk! And I'm hoping that when the other regular staff member goes on her break, I am not left in charge (aargh!)....

And like, yikes!

Today's Albanian word is me thirre which means to call.

Tuesday, March 16, 2004

Joy! Joy! I'm on nights again aargh... on a more positive note, have just discovered that Yo Sushi do vegetarian things in their restaurants, so that might be a possible future dining experience, as I love vegetarian sushi.

Today's Albanian phrase is a ta kana....? Do you like...? [food item]

Monday, March 15, 2004

Feeling a bit fed up generally today... perhaps it's the impending doom that is night shifts, which start tomorrow, or perhaps I'm just fed up with work at the minute.

Today's Albanian word is duhet which means should, have to.

Sunday, March 14, 2004

Yesterday's Albanian word was strejt which means expensive.

Today's word is lire which means cheap.

Saturday, March 13, 2004

When I say Black Eyed, you say Peas...

The Boyfriend saw the error of his ways: The Black Eyed Peas gig was v.good... and that's coming from someone who doesn't really care much for rap music. They were really good performers, lots of 'stage-presence'. And they did an interesting version of Crazy In Love, including free Beyonce dancing. Nice touch: 10 seconds silence in the middle of Where Is The Love for the people of Madrid. The musicians were extremely talented: each did some jazz-style improv which just blew everyone away. In a word: fab. But I won't make a habit of this rap-malarkey ;op

Friday, March 12, 2004

All is well.. we're on for The BEP gig... review to follow tomorrow....

Today's Albanian word is shtire which means difficult.

Took a leaf out of Peter'sbook, and took the Inkblot test...

michelle, your subconscious mind is driven most by Kindness

This means you have a deep desire to be kind and fair to others. You may even be preoccupied with finding kindness in the world around you, far more than you realize on a conscious level.

It is possible that the underlying reason you seek kindness in the world around you, is that you fear cruelty, the opposite of kindness. That could drive you to unconsciously project kindness wherever possible into your world. Regardless of its origin, your steadfast adherence to being kind to others is felt by people you are close to.

You are probably more susceptible than others to being overwhelmed by emotions — both yours and others'. It is possible that your unusually empathic nature is a result of your natural sensitivity to others' pain, and your desire to help them avoid it. For this reason, things might affect you more than they affect your friends and family. To protect yourself from too much emotional intensity, you might want to keep an eye out so you can recognize it when it starts. That will allow you to slow things down until you feel grounded again.

Overall, your strong orientation towards kindness gives you an optimistic nature, which translates into you seeing the best in the people around you. Because you're not one to be overly judgmental, others may seek out your company when they need a friend to talk to. People close to you likely know that you care deeply about the inner lives of others and can listen to what they have to say without imposing your views on them.

Though your unconscious mind is driven most strongly by Kindness, there is much more to who you are at your core.

Finished the Antony Grayling book last night, having taken only 6 days to read it (must be a record for me, for I am not usually such a quick reader). Really enjoyed the book, gives you a little food for thought, without bogging you down in complex arguments. Just as well I enjoyed it, as I bought two of his other books at the same time. Next on the list, however, is The Journals of Sylvia Plath... I've had this book for ages, and have started it before, but only got as far as 20 pages. It looks very interesting, and I have always been fascinated by "tortured souls", so it should be right up my street.

The BEP situation is as yet unresolved... I will have to wait till The Boyfriend wakes up (ie. mid-afternoon) to see how things pan out. I did suggest that even if my dad was coming, then perhaps he might go out for a meal with a friend, freeing me up to go to the BEP gig, but this was not well-received by the opposition. I think the answer was 'neither of us will go' and he'd let his friend go with someone else, which was not quite the answer I'd hoped for. Still, all could change by 3pm...

Thursday, March 11, 2004

Can you believe this? I saw the Black Eyed Peas were playing at The Forum (for which The Boyfriend can get us on the guest list for free) so I suggested a few days ago that we go. The Boyfriend, having seen TBEP before (while working) said he wasn't that interested. However, today it emerges that one of his chums is over from abroad for a few days, and to avoid the risk that his mate might want to stay in our already overcrowded one-bedroom flat, The Boyfriend lied and told him that my dad was staying here over the weekend. Now, The Friend wanted to go to TBEP gig, so the two of them are going, and I can't go because my ruddy dad is supposed to be here!!! Aargh! The moral of this story is: never lie kids, it never works out... even if someone else lies about you!

Today's Albanian word is lehte which means easy.

Another day, another blood pressure check... after being kept waiting for 45 minutes for my appointment, the lovely GP has said my BP is at the "upper end of normal" but no tablets required... phew! Must cut down on the crisps!! I feel a shopping trip coming on to celebrate....

Tuesday, March 09, 2004

Had a busy day at work (when is it not busy?)... so am now munching kettle chips and drinking the rest of the Moet (and it still has a bit of fizz!).

Today's Albanian word is katror which means square.

Monday, March 08, 2004

That book is very addictive - I read over half of it last night in another electric-blanket-fuelled late-night reading session. Feeling a bit under the weather due to my "ladies' monthly visitor" (hhmph!). Have decided to skip the gym and stay at home instead (much more sensible).

Today's Albanian word is me menu which means to start.

Sunday, March 07, 2004

I think I'm turning into a hermit...all I have done for the past two days (and to be honest, most of my days off actually) is stay at home and read. Saturday night? no problem - you'll find me under the electric blanket with a book! Does this mark the start of the downhill slope into middle-aged? at age 27??!

Have finally finished The Quincunx - a mammoth read at 1200 pages, but every page was gripping. There is plenty of action in this book; basically it's written in the style of a Victorian novel (a la Dickens)... it's the story of a young boy who is the heir to an estate which has been left to him in a will, but the will is in the hands of his enemies, and the book is the unravelling of his family history and that of his enemies, and his attempts to get the will back. I am surprised I had never heard of it before I saw it in a second-hand bookshop, nor has anyone I know heard of it - more people should read it, it's a really good story.

Next on the reading list is The Meaning of Things by A.C. Grayling (who, incidentally, I had a few lectures by when I did my brief stint on a philosophy degree at Birkbeck College). My mum is planning to read the book at the same time, so I fear more heated debates by phone are on the cards....

Today's Albanian word is me nise which means to start.

Saturday, March 06, 2004

The risotto was yummy - didn't have any pine nuts, but it didn't need them anyway. Was a bit naughty and made it with proper butter and everything, but am now jigging round the room to Insomnia which should shift a few calories. Oh, and get well soon to the Fat Buddha, who's a bit under the weather.

Went out last night (and miraculously not a drop of alcohol passed my lips!) to Point 101 in town. Was supposed to meet my friend C and her Portuguese fancy-man Goncalo, but the music was a bit on the loud side for making small talk with strangers so it wasn't exactly a success. As I had gone out after work (and after a 12 hour shift you're not exactly full of life and in the party mood), we were planning to go home at 11pm. Then we bumped into an old work colleague of The Boyfriends, who now works as a manager at Soho House... and he said if we fancied going he would put us on the guest list. Aargh! The very evening I am recovering from the vomit and nausea fest that was the day before, I get an invitation to a swish private members bar in Soho. Oh well, there's always another night I suppose.... always the way tho eh?

Feeling a bit more back to normal today, altho I did still feel sick yesterday, so perhaps it wasn't a hangover after all [and The Dove didn't have that much to drink]. I am in the mood for pottering, and after watching Saturday Kitchen, I am most definitely in the mood for cooking (and more importantly eating!). I have the urge for risotto, and have found a nice recipe for butternut squash and sage risotto on that BBC site....have just been to Sainsburys and bought the necessaries, plus the most stinkiest blue stilton in the shop.

Yesterday's Albanian word was rrall which means rarely.

Today's word is kurgjo which means nothing.

Thursday, March 04, 2004

Oh and yesterday's Albanian word was permi which means on top.

Today's word is qite which means put it.

Urgh. After a few drinkies after work with some colleagues, I now have THE hangover from hell. I got up after 5 hours of sleep and spewed a ringer (as they say).... have been unable to eat or drink anything until now. Head is still banging, no paracetamol in house. No energy or motivation to put shoes on and go and buy some. Totally self-inflicted, but totally evil nonetheless. I'm off for a lie-down.

Tuesday, March 02, 2004

Busy day at work, need to get to bed ASAP to do it all again tomorrow.

Today's Albanian word is spesh which means often.

Monday, March 01, 2004

Feeling a bit less snotty today, I have had almost 12 hours sleep thanks to Night Nurse capsules. At £4.39, these Day & Night Nurse capsules were not exactly a bargain, but to be honest, they're the best thing I've tried so far. I am still sniffing, but feel 100% better.

Have an appraisal at work tomorrow - I hate these sort of things, giving your 'strengths and weaknesses' and what my plans are for the next 6 months. Should I be honest and say I am trying to get out of nursing? maybe that' not quite what they're looking for...

Albanian word for today: edhe pse which means although.