Sunday, February 29, 2004

It's personality test time...

ENTJ - "Field Marshall". The basic driving force and need is to lead. Tend to seek a position of responsibility and enjoys being an executive. 1.8% of total population.
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Conscious self
Overall self
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Type 1 Perfectionism |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Type 2 Helpfulness |||||||||||||| 60%
Type 3 Image Awareness |||||||||| 40%
Type 4 Sensitivity || 10%
Type 5 Detachment |||||||||||||| 56%
Type 6 Anxiety |||||||||||| 46%
Type 7 Adventurousness |||||| 30%
Type 8 Aggressiveness |||||||||| 33%
Type 9 Calmness |||||||||||||||||| 73%
Your Conscious-Surface type is 1w9
Your Unconscious-Overall type is 1w9
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Extroverted (E) 55.56% Introverted (I) 44.44%
Imaginative (N) 59.46% Realistic (S) 40.54%
Intellectual (T) 60% Emotional (F) 40%
Organized (J) 59.38% Easygoing (P) 40.63%
Your type is: ENTJ
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Hmm not sure how accurate these are... altho the "conscious self - overall self" bit seems to hit the spot. I doubt very much if "field marshal" is my personality type - people who know me would say I'm much quieter than that, although I do like to lead people, but not in a "field marshall" style (i'd like to think!). And as for my career test saying my personality type is "executive"... hmm... no clinical psychology in there!

The Albanian beans have not cured my flu, and I am now off sick with the nose from hell. On a good note, have now booked the flights to Kosova for April (for 2 weeks) which we are both really looking forward to. As it was quiet yesterday, I managed to look up some Albanian-language learning websites and sat and did that for about an hour or so. One of The Boyfriend's friends from school is getting married while we are over there, so I will get to go along to that (ooh must buy new outfit and shoes!). Plus there are plenty of internet cafes in Prishtina, so I will be able to blog (phew!).

Have just had a most bizarre conversation with my friend - she said her boyfriend bought her a skirt from Spitalfields market, but she can only see herself wearing it once or twice, so she wants to go back and swap it for... a poncho (which, apparently, she will wear "all of the time")....hmm.

Have been awake since 7.30am today, perhaps due to feeling guilty because I'm not at work.. or perhaps because I only had 400 pages to read of That Book and am now desperate to find out what happens! So this morning I lay in bed next to the snoring one, and read about another 60pages. Do you think I can get this book finished before I am supposed to go back to work on Tuesday??!

And until the Great Kosovan Adventure, as a tribute to that man who is learning Swedish, I will attempt to learn one Albanian word a day.... Today's word is pamje which means view.

[for pronunciation, see here]

Friday, February 27, 2004

Albanian beans...

As a special flu-sufferer's winter treat, The Boyfriend is cooking me a recipe from home - Albanian beans, or "pasul" to its' friends (which, bizarrely, does not feature on this website of albanian recipes). It's basically just butter beans cooked with paprika and an onion and made into a sort of soup-type thing. We have soaked our beans overnight (v.good) and now the cooking is ready to commence... for best results boil slowly for about 3 or 4 hours. Add dried chilli to serve for a flu-busting delight! Maybe I will have a drop of that champagne after all...

Mysteriously, yesterday morning I woke up with a stonker of a cold, and it won't shift. I am plying myself with echinacea, nurofen cold and flu, and oranges. Why is it that when you're at work you're fine, and then as soon as you have a day off you get sick. C'est la vie eh? Not sure if I'm even up to drinking the Moet aargh!!

Thursday, February 26, 2004

And as a few other people have done already, here's the first ten tunes spurted out by my computer when I set my media player to random....

Dido - "Isobel"
Beck - "Little One"
Afro Cuban All Stars - "Los Sitio Asere"
Led Zeppelin - "Good Times Bad Times"
REM - "Day Sleeper"
Marvin Gaye - "Sitting on the Dock of the Bay"
Rossini - "The Barber of Seville Overture"
Tricky - "Wait for God"
Jeff Buckley - "So Real"
The Kinks - "Waterloo Sunset"

Yes, I'd say that just about covers it.

Managed to talk to my mum on the phone last night for 1hr 20mins (our record so far!)... hot topic of debate was the teaching of religion in schools [I must point out that my mum is very religious, and I am not]. I remember the recent hoo-har about the proposal to teach atheism in schools, and to be honest I think they should just do away with religious education in schools altogether. I plump for teaching philosophy in schools instead, maybe that way we'd have a younger generation [do I sound old yet?] who can articulate a proper argument and actually think logically about things, rather than the one word anthem of "innit". And now I've started, I am dead against all these proposals to make education in schools "more vocational"... whilst a classical education may not be the most 'fun', I think it's definitely the most beneficial for 'developing the mind' and providing a general education. To me, vocational education is just another way of dumbing-down our culture and population. There, I feel better now!

Wednesday, February 25, 2004

Aah "shucks" (as they would say in Charlie Brown!)... I'm a sucker for a quiz...

You're Animal Farm!

by George Orwell

You are living proof that power corrupts and whoever leads you will
become just as bad as the past leaders. You're quite conflicted about this emotionally
and waver from hopelessly idealistic to tragically jaded. Ultimately, you know you can't
trust pigs. Your best moments are when you're down on all fours.

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at the Blue Pyramid.

Jesus, what's that last line all about??!!! *blushes


Have had a manic two days at work, which has included the following: a death, epileptic fits, people's relatives being arrested on the ward for being violent towards their own teenage daughter and threatening to kill the staff (!), and the usual steady supply of drinkers and druggies. And relax! Now have two days off, and that bottle of Moet has Friday's name on it!

Monday, February 23, 2004

Retail Therapy

After the shite that was yesterday, I decided to hit the shops... bought a new outfit from Oasis - a yellow shirty thing and a 1950s skirt (bonus points: the size 12 was too big, had to buy the size 10 yay!) ...will go back for the round-toe '50s shoes I saw in Topshop next week [these or the more strappy shoe Topshop-own-brand ones? can't decide] !! a black v-neck jumper (well you can never have too many can you?) from Zara, and some underwear from M&S (red!). Off to spinning with the evil scary man tonight (the teacher, that is) to ensure the fancy pants and smaller skirt still fit!

Sunday, February 22, 2004

Marvellous... I just mentioned to The Boyfriend about the possibililty of moving up north and he said "I'm not doing it so there's no point of even discussing it" and practically put the phone down on me. Looks like I'm staying in London then... *sigh.

Now in my mind I have gone from having a small holiday in the north-east to wanting to move back there, although I always said I wouldn't. It's just that you can buy a house for less than £100k in a nice area, and the schools are better (yes, i'm thinking ahead!) and the countryside is right next to you, and well just everything really. I think that living in London for almost 9 years is starting to wear me down - too many people everywhere you go (even if you go to somewhere like Hampstead Heath on a Sunday morning to escape the traffic and hustle-and-bustle of city life, you get there to discover half of London had the same idea) ... the idea of living in a nice house by the sea is very appealing on a cold, windy grey day in London. Now I just have to persuade The Boyfriend to agree... which might be extremely difficult (read: Impossible). He has tons of old friends he's known since school in London, plus his brother, and despite my comments that we'd have a better quality of life up north etc etc he is v. averse to change. Bugger! Any suggestions for twisting his arm gratefully received (except for shipping all of his friends up there with us, which clearly would not work).

Tried to arrange a shopping trip to the West End today... rang a few people, but every single one of them has a hangover and refuses to leave the house... aah the joys of alcohol. I, however, was in bed at 10pm and slept for a glorious 12hrs. I am now ready to take on the world, albeit alone. The perils of being sensible.

Saturday, February 21, 2004

Oh and it looks like The Big Kosovan Adventure is off. A Small Trip to Newcastle might be the alternative. Perhaps interspersed with days out in Edinburgh and a possible few days in Dublin.... nothing definite yet tho.

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Kind of reminds me of work!

Managed to survive spinning (after much arguing with bus-drivers on the way to the gym re: Oystercard not working on the ruddy 316), and have the bottle of Moet in the fridge. Sadly, The Boyfriend is working tonight, and I cannot justify drinking fancy champers by myself in the house. An old friend rang and said he wanted to meet up, but sadly not tonight (how annoying!). You know when you just feel like doing something, but no one else is available and it's fecking freezing anyway? I'm having one of those days...

Still, I suppose I have plenty of films to watch and 600 pages of That Book left to read, *sigh.

In a fleet of madness I have just booked myself to do today's spinning class (and my legs have barely recovered from the other night). I deserve a shopping trip for all this hard work...

Oh, and a bottle of Moet has mysteriously appeared on top of my mantelpiece......

Friday, February 20, 2004

Ooh have just read in the Open University Prospectus thingy that for the course that I have signed up for, you have to put in 15hours of study time a week... eek!

Urgh. Had a horrid day at work... worked 12.5 hours with only a half-hour lunch break, and no time for a dinner break... full to 25-bed capacity all day, 19 admissions (yes, we really did make that many beds)...just a big nightmare all round. Feel better now I'm having a glass of Pinot Grigio and eating Jaffa Cakes, I must say. Still a dull ache in the abdominal region.

Got a letter from the landlord saying they want to do property inspections on such and such a date, at 8.30am... now this is a day I start a run of night shifts... they said in the letter "please let us know if this is inconvenient".. so I did, and they kindly said they can come later at ... 10am... ahem. How kind.

Wednesday, February 18, 2004


I hurt. Yesterday in a fit of "ooh let's get fit" I did a 30-min "abs-attack" class (even the name sounds painful) followed by a 50-min spinning class. Now every muscle I have aches. Even muscles I didn't know I had before. Day off today for me and The Boyfriend... the plan is go into town and have a coffee and a muffin (to undo all my good work yesterday) and a perusal of Borders bookshop, followed by some wine and a meal at home (possibly lemon risotto out of the Nigella book)...

Monday, February 16, 2004

Phew.. it's all over (for this month). Had a bit of an interesting night last night... had a scary alcoholic crack addict blokie who was very scary (had a huge history of violence and using knives etc etc) who was v. agitated and ended up being removed from the ward with security + the police. Lucky me, he was my patient. Night shifts always finish with a bang eh? Incidentally, I remember readng in that bloke's notes that he inherited £42,000 when his dad died and he spent it all on crack cocaine in 3 years (sometimes using £1000 a day!!!)... bloody hell.

Just been out for a drinky in town with a friend... sadly only stayed out 2 hours, so now back home on me tod.

Sunday, February 15, 2004

Yay yay and thrice yay... last night tonight. Actually, apart from the first one I did, this run of nights has been ok, not too busy, although last night we had 2 people being sectioned under the mental health act at the same time (and we're not a psychiatric ward). Have just arranged to meet up with C, my American friend (also a nurse), tomorrow night for some drinks in town (fortunately not till 5pm, so I can have a little sleep first!). Back on days Thursday, so have a little time off after tonight. Right! Crunchy Nut Corkflakes and a bath are calling (but not necessarily in that order, and certainly not together.....)

Saturday, February 14, 2004

Well, it's Valentine's night, and both me and The Boyfriend are working night shifts (well he finishes at 2am but same sort of thing), so we have deferred our romantic meal type evening to Wednesday. The Kosovan Trip might still be on for April as well, just trying to ok the time off with work and then we might book the flights. Two weeks in a country that has intermittent electricity and water and where I can barely speak the language... oh what fun!! I had better get me "Learn Albanian in 5 mins" book out hadn't I.

P.S. Yay! I'm half-way through the night shifts!!

Friday, February 13, 2004

Urgh... I have to leave for work in half an hour, but I am so tired I could just go to bed right now. :o(

Aah night shifts night shifts... had a manically busy night up until around 1am when it quietened down nicely. Managed to read 50 pages of The Quincunx (and get paid for it... maybe this night shift malarkey's not so bad after all). Had a patient on the ward who looked suspiciously like the man in the wheelchair ["I want that one!"] from Little Britain. Unfortunately, once I had this image in my mind, it was difficult to stop smirking at some points. Now am up and about after having a minimal four hours sleep... going to do it all again tonight, and the next night, and the next night.... what a marvellous prospect. Still, if I get to read my book then it's not so bad!

Thursday, February 12, 2004

Which British Literary Period are you?


1837-1900--Tennyson, Dickens, Hopkins. You are a product of those that came before you. You aren't afraid to question those in authority, but all in all, you're happy with the Empire

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Urgh... on nights again tonight. Have been awake since 10am, not sure why tho as I went to bed at 2.30am. Oh well... methinks I may be a little tired tomorrow morning, post-shift. Did I ever mention that I really hate shift work?!

Wednesday, February 11, 2004

Can you tell a fake smile from a genuine one? I got 19/20 (courtesy of Pete)

My Brain Usage Profile:

Auditory : 44%
Visual : 55%
Left : 55%
Right : 44%

"You are somewhat left-hemisphere dominant and show a preference for visual learning, although not extreme in either characteristic. You probably tend to do most things in moderation, but not always.

Your left-hemisphere dominance implies that your learning style is organized and structured, detail oriented and logical. Your visual preference, though, has you seeking stimulation and multiple data. Such an outlook can overwhelm structure and logic and create an almost continuous state of uncertainty and agitation. You may well suffer a feeling of continually trying to "catch up" with yourself.

Your tendency to be organized and logical and attend to details is reasonably well-established which should afford you success regardless of your chosen field of endeavor. You can "size up" situations and take in information rapidly. However, you must then subject that data to being classified and organized which causes you to "lose touch" with the immediacy of the problem.

Your logical and methodical nature hamper you in this regard though in the long run it may work to your advantage since you "learn from experience" and can go through the process more rapidly on subsequent occasions.

You remain predominantly functional in your orientation and practical. Abstraction and theory are secondary to application. In keeping with this, you focus on details until they manifest themselves in a unique pattern and only then work with the "larger whole."

With regards to your career choices, you have a mentality that would be good as a scientist, coach, athlete, design consultant, or an engineering technician. You can "see where you want to go" and even be able to "tell yourself," but find that you are "fighting yourself" at the darndest times."

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I suppose that's fairly true - I am fairly methodical I suppose, although I am very indecisive. Do tend to be organised when it comes to learning new things.

Tuesday, February 10, 2004

Well my dad has returned from whence he came (ie. oop norf). Have had a smashing 4 days - have been on the London Eye (rather overpriced, but worth it nonetheless), been in about 5 different Starbucks, been to Camden and Spitalfields markets, frequented Borders bookshop (didn't break the New Year Resolution - Dad bought me some books hehe... three A C Grayling ones, and Star of the Sea), have been in the Natural History Museum to look at the dinosaurs, have seen Of Mice and Men at the Old Vic Theatre (fab, well worth a visit, but sadly not many theatre-goers in), and today have been to Primrose Hill and Regents Park, St Pauls cathedral, the wobbly bridge and the Sun at the Tate Modern..... Phew! I need a holiday now to get over it...

County map
I've visited the counties in yellow.
Which counties have you visited?

made by marnanel
map reproduced from Ordnance Survey map data
by permission of the Ordnance Survey.
© Crown copyright 2001.

Gosh, I really should get out more...

Monday, February 09, 2004

Dad staying with me at the moment... knackering ourselves out on the London Eye, Natural History Museum, Wagamamas etc... going to see Of Mice + Men tonight... update to follow shortly.

Friday, February 06, 2004

I am mid-tidy-up... can't say I'm enjoying it but hey. Went to Debenhams in Oxford Street this morning (and still that god-botherer with the megaphone is shouting "you're the sinner, jesus is winner"), spent an unexpected £100 on new duvet, pillows, duvet cover and matching sheets and pillowcases... now I just have to sort out all the clothes in the bedroom and it will look fab. Aah.

Sorry there's been no updates for a few days - the inconvenience of work. Have too many things to get done today - must get showered quickly, go to the post office to send out the complete works of Plato to a buyer on amazon, and then head into town to buy a spare duvet, duvet cover and more pillows - my dad is coming to stay tomorrow (only 4 days now) and I am not prepared at all! Then when I get home I must tidy the flat up as it's a bit of a mess. Also was aiming to get to the gym at some point, but that may have to go out of the window. I have until 12.25 tomorrow to sort it all out.... the clock is ticking....

Monday, February 02, 2004

Oh Shit

Christ... I just walked into the bathroom because the light was on, and noticed that I had started running the bath and it was just about to overflow because it was full right to the top with the taps still running, and I totally forgot about it. My mind is clearly elsewhere. But where? and how can I get it back?!!


I am 1 year old in the world of blogging. Not just on this blog, as I only moved here 6 months ago, but in my former life as the Happy Hippy. I only changed to the black dove site due to Blogger not wanting to update the other one, but it's worked out better in the end I think. I have managed to design this blog (old one was just templates) and it's more to my liking. Not sure if the content's changed much in 1 year - I suppose the difference is now I have a regular audience, I have found my "voice" a bit more. It's quite hard to write entertaining pieces when you think that no one is actually reading it. Have just been perusing my own archives, and nothing has changed at all - I still obsess about hairstyles, still watch Crimewatch with the lights off, still read a lot of books, and still moan a lot about night shifts.... aah the consistency!

I am planning to figure out how to add in a photos page to the site, and also a splash / index page of some sort (with the domain name I bought almost a bloody year ago and haven't used at all yet!).

Other news - been on a massive music download-fest: new additions to the Kazaa folder include: Amy Winehouse "Frank" [chilled-out, jazzy, sort of like Lauren Hill meets Jill Scott], Norah Jones "Feels Like Home", Zero 7 "When It Falls", Joss Stone "The Soul Sessions" [downloaded purely for the brilliance of the White Stripes cover Fell In Love With A Boy...she's only 16 as well! amazing!], Air "Talkie Walkie" and some other chilled out vibes. Beautiful.

Sunday, February 01, 2004

Marvellous day in Cambridge - beautiful place, took some great photos (and hopefully will be able to show them on the site soon). Great day all-round!

I am up at this ungodly hour of the day on a sunday as well - and all because I am off to Cambridge for the day with my friend (who handily happens to be able to drive). I've not been before, so I'm taking the camera! Hope the weather holds out.